2019 in Review

So 2019 happened…

I didn’t blog much. There wasn’t much to say really.

I spent the first three quarters of the year wrangling my mental health. With the help of a holistic psychiatrist I improved my nutrient intake and dropped my medications. The final step down didn’t go well so I’m on a new medication that is working really well and continuing to work on the elements of diet and lifestyle that support my mental health.

My physical health has gradually improved. The germs that Rabbit brings home from daycare means that I’ve been sick a lot but it’s gradually improving. My Beloved on the other hand got pneumonia and landed their ass in hospital with an abscess is their lung. They’re ok now but they’ve lost about 10% of their lung capacity on one side.

I am continuing work for the little events company I’ve been with for the last year and am loving it more everyday. I will be incredibly sad when it comes to an end.

My beloved was made redundant in August. They are now working as a consultant and have an ongoing position lined up for next year. I am so incredibly proud of how they handled the redundancy so soon after being sick, and so very happy for them with the positions they’ve found. They are doing so well.

Rabbit grows at an insane rate. She’s bright, cheerful, inquisitive and fearless. Everything a shortly-to-be-two year old should be. Her big sisters are amazing, as always.

My disappointments for the year are few.

I didn’t make as much art as I’d like, but I did make art.
I didn’t read enough, but I did read.
I didn’t socialise enough, but my health is improving so it balances out.

Overall this year has been brutal but rewarding.

It’s been a while

I’ve not had much energy for blogging in the past few weeks so it’s now mid-March and no one has heard anything from me since January.

Photo of baby girl in a blue onsie with little grey trees on it.

The Good:

  • Rabbit is ever adorable, sleeping quite well for her age and developing nicely.
  • I’m back at uni and enjoying it.
  • I have the world’s best partner who is doing their best to take care of me.
  • My blood pressure has returned to normal after a few weeks of it being very high post birth.
  • I am doing some work with a lovely lady and learning some new skills along the way.

The Bad:

  • Uni is a struggle, do you know hard it is to study with an infant? Really fucking hard.
  • I do not function well without sleep.
  • I had to stop working on the Hekate stuff to fit in life stuff. This makes me sad.
  • I am so many shades of out of spoons.

The (really) Ugly:

  • My mental health has gone to hell in a handbasket. Primarily, we feel, because of lack of sleep combined with the added stress of motherhood and uni combined. I am… unwell. Very much so. The people I want to know the details already do, but suffice to say my medication is being upped to help my brain cope with everything and I’ve done an awful lot of crying recently.
  • My floors… just don’t look at them if you visit.

Sleep In!!

I got to sleep to 6:30am this morning. Rabbit usually wakes at 5:30am so this was awesome! I feel good. I’ve done housework I’ve been putting off for a couple of days even and it’s only 10am.

So, Rabbit is 3 weeks today. In the past 3 weeks I have learnt something important: Babies are a fuckton of work and I can’t do all the things I want to. I need to nap at least once a day with her in order to be functional for her 12-1am feed and she needs a lot of my time with feeds, nappy changes and playing. We’ve resolved one problem by putting together her big cot in the loungeroom so she can play and nap out here with me during the day.

Photo of my 3 week old daughter, nicknamed Rabbit, sleeping on a colourful play mat.
Rabbit seems to like her play mat in the cot set up. She plays and naps while I do chores.

Unfortunately, all that means I’ve had to drop things. The main one is my Hekate course. I can pick it up in the next cycle of it so it’s not a drama, but I’m a bit sad. I simply can’t keep up with it right now and I definitely won’t be able to catch up and keep up with it when uni starts back at the end of Feb.

With that said, there is some good news. I’m developing a nice routine with the little one and that means I’m doing ok with my self-care. My mental health is holding up surprisingly well, and I’m physically doing pretty damned well. My shoulders are killing me, but I’ll sort out a massage to right that soon. The girls are back at school so I have a bit of quiet and calm at home during the week now, after several months of someone always being here. Also Kovu the Dog has chilled the fuck out and is back to behaving himself for the most part. Still working on the barking but it’s getting better.

My Mate is away for work for 10 days and I’m missing him like blazes. However, I’m managing the home stuff and I’m upright. I’m also super proud of him. He knows why I am.

There’s been very little creative stuff this last 2 weeks, but I’ve continued on Rabbit’s blanket and am about to start a little gift for a friend’s baby which is due in a few weeks.

So that’s me, how are you?

 

January Crafting – Week 2

Uhm, last week I made this and learnt how to take care of it:

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Today Rabbit is exactly one week old. We’re thrilled to have her with us at last. It was absolutely love at first sight.

My Beloved there helped make her and was a very good support person while I bought her into the world. They’re so cute together.

 

Early Jan Crafting

Not a lot happening here right now. Still waiting for Rabbit to arrive and I’m at the so pregnant I hate everything stage of it all. I’ve run out of steam for real chores and cleaning so been doing some odds and ends of crafting.

 

I HAVE SET UP MY LOOM!! I had to wait until the Christmas tree was down as it was sitting on the table the loom was going onto. The loom is a small rigid heddle loom for me to start practising with before moving onto the big four heddle floor loom I have. I’m happily digging into a pair of rigid heddle beginner-friendly books before I get started with it. I’m really looking forward to starting with it.

Last night I washed and blocked the baby blanket I finished crocheting last year. It was my first ‘large’ project and I’ve definitely ballsed it but it was a learning experience and I’ve figured out how to do it right next time. I’m still a beginner and I’m proud of my first attempt!

And this morning I dug around and pulled out a scrap of fabric and made myself a jewellery hanging board. It’s a cork board covered in fabric (the fabric is stapled to the back of the board to keep it there) with some gold string to hang earrings from, and gold pushpins for necklaces. In doing this I located jewellery I didn’t know I even had.

My only cleaning so far today has been getting the dust out of my jewellery box and stripping the bed as my mate climbed all over it in his work boots while he was putting up some roller blinds in our room.

Quick Shots…

I have tried to keep posts here regular, baby free, and longish… succeeded on baby free, but to be honest baby is eating my life and that’s ok.
So I’m changing that. 

If you don’t want to read about pregnancy and babies, then don’t read the posts tagged ‘pregnancy’ or ‘Rabbit’ and go do something that interests you. Short, random, probably uninteresting posts incoming.

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