I’ve not had much energy for blogging in the past few weeks so it’s now mid-March and no one has heard anything from me since January.
Rabbit is ever adorable, sleeping quite well for her age and developing nicely.
I’m back at uni and enjoying it.
I have the world’s best partner who is doing their best to take care of me.
My blood pressure has returned to normal after a few weeks of it being very high post birth.
I am doing some work with a lovely lady and learning some new skills along the way.
Uni is a struggle, do you know hard it is to study with an infant? Really fucking hard.
I do not function well without sleep.
I had to stop working on the Hekate stuff to fit in life stuff. This makes me sad.
I am so many shades of out of spoons.
The (really) Ugly:
My mental health has gone to hell in a handbasket. Primarily, we feel, because of lack of sleep combined with the added stress of motherhood and uni combined. I am… unwell. Very much so. The people I want to know the details already do, but suffice to say my medication is being upped to help my brain cope with everything and I’ve done an awful lot of crying recently.
I got to sleep to 6:30am this morning. Rabbit usually wakes at 5:30am so this was awesome! I feel good. I’ve done housework I’ve been putting off for a couple of days even and it’s only 10am.
So, Rabbit is 3 weeks today. In the past 3 weeks I have learnt something important: Babies are a fuckton of work and I can’t do all the things I want to. I need to nap at least once a day with her in order to be functional for her 12-1am feed and she needs a lot of my time with feeds, nappy changes and playing. We’ve resolved one problem by putting together her big cot in the loungeroom so she can play and nap out here with me during the day.
Unfortunately, all that means I’ve had to drop things. The main one is my Hekate course. I can pick it up in the next cycle of it so it’s not a drama, but I’m a bit sad. I simply can’t keep up with it right now and I definitely won’t be able to catch up and keep up with it when uni starts back at the end of Feb.
With that said, there is some good news. I’m developing a nice routine with the little one and that means I’m doing ok with my self-care. My mental health is holding up surprisingly well, and I’m physically doing pretty damned well. My shoulders are killing me, but I’ll sort out a massage to right that soon. The girls are back at school so I have a bit of quiet and calm at home during the week now, after several months of someone always being here. Also Kovu the Dog has chilled the fuck out and is back to behaving himself for the most part. Still working on the barking but it’s getting better.
My Mate is away for work for 10 days and I’m missing him like blazes. However, I’m managing the home stuff and I’m upright. I’m also super proud of him. He knows why I am.
There’s been very little creative stuff this last 2 weeks, but I’ve continued on Rabbit’s blanket and am about to start a little gift for a friend’s baby which is due in a few weeks.
Pregnancy recovery is a slow process. Very slow and tedious, and frustrating on top of that. I’m getting into a routine with Rabbit that means I get enough sleep, I’m showering daily which is very nice and so far my stitches appear to be healing well. Next step is exercise…
Yesterday we took Rabbit and Kovu the Dog, our giant German Shepherd, for a walk at the same time. By the end of it, I was in tears. Kovu just would not behave for me and was dragging on the lead which was not ok for me. By the time I got back to the house I was frustrated, in pain and cried all over My Mate.
Tonight I took him again. I was worried I’d have a repeat of yesterday, but apparently, that was the presence of Rabbit and My Mate causing the issues. Tonight he happily walked at heel for the entire, very short, walk.
He’s still very anxious around Rabbit and tends to freak out and start ignoring commands. I’m getting a dog trainer out to help me deal with this soon as it can’t be happening while My Mate is in the USA late this month.
Not a lot happening here right now. Still waiting for Rabbit to arrive and I’m at the so pregnant I hate everything stage of it all. I’ve run out of steam for real chores and cleaning so been doing some odds and ends of crafting.
My small rigid heddle loom setup on a white work table.
My handmade baby blanket pinned out to block so it maintains shape.
A photo of the jewellery board. A cork board I’ve covered in a purple scrap of fabric and have necklaces and earrings hanging off.
I HAVE SET UP MY LOOM!! I had to wait until the Christmas tree was down as it was sitting on the table the loom was going onto. The loom is a small rigid heddle loom for me to start practising with before moving onto the big four heddle floor loom I have. I’m happily digging into a pair of rigid heddle beginner-friendly books before I get started with it. I’m really looking forward to starting with it.
Last night I washed and blocked the baby blanket I finished crocheting last year. It was my first ‘large’ project and I’ve definitely ballsed it but it was a learning experience and I’ve figured out how to do it right next time. I’m still a beginner and I’m proud of my first attempt!
And this morning I dug around and pulled out a scrap of fabric and made myself a jewellery hanging board. It’s a cork board covered in fabric (the fabric is stapled to the back of the board to keep it there) with some gold string to hang earrings from, and gold pushpins for necklaces. In doing this I located jewellery I didn’t know I even had.
My only cleaning so far today has been getting the dust out of my jewellery box and stripping the bed as my mate climbed all over it in his work boots while he was putting up some roller blinds in our room.
Thinking of you all – friends, family and people I’ve never met who read along as well – as my Wolf and I quietly see in the new year together from the couch. 2017 has been equal parts amazingly good and extremely hard for us, and I can’t bring myself to feel sad for seeing in 2018 quietly with the love of my life.
My wishes for 2018, for all of us…
May our Ancestors, those of the blood and of the heart, and Our Mighty Dead stand with us through the trials that life throws at us, and our spirits soar through the year to come.
May the year to come be one of abundance and laughter, of good times and resolutions to old hurts.
May the powerful who deign to stand above us fall, and the humble who work for the greater good rise. Let us stand with them.
May we create. Create things, create life, create a better world. Let it be a year where kindness rules above all.
May it be a year overflowing with love. God knows we need more of it in this world.
Above all, may it be the year we live as best we may, as authentically as we may, and as honestly as we may.
My mum has been making curried sausages for us since I was a kid. I love them, but when I went low fodmap I kind of ruled them out. At the time onion free pork sausages weren’t easily attainable. Thankfully that’s changed. This is yummy, easy, comfort food. I’m going to list the original recipe with the low fodmap switches in italics and a quick change of instructions for the “I’m too tired to life” slow cooker version at the bottom.
Also, this freezes really well. If you want the peas/beans to stay bright don’t put them in before freezing.
Vary quantities to accommodate your family. This is what I put in for 4 people with left over for lunch.
1 onion – 3-4 spring onions (green parts only) + Aesofoetida
2 medium carrots
2-3 medium to large potatoes
Canola oil or spray
Keen’s curry powder
Frozen peas – green beans chopped into bite-sized pieces.
Cooked rice (white is usual but works well with brown as well)
(OPTIONAL) Boil your sausages. Allow to cool and remove the skins.
Cut your sausages, potatoes and carrots into bite-sized chunks.
Dice your onion into reasonably sized chunks.
Heat oil in the pan, saute the onion (Spring onions).
Put in your sausages – if you skipped step one brown these up a bit before proceeding.
Add carrots, potato and curry powder to taste* (Usually a solid tablespoon or more at our place).
*Add some aesofoetida to taste here as well if you’d like to strengthen the onion flavour for low fodmappers.
Brown everything up a bit then cover with water and pop a lid on. Simmer until potatoes are tender.
Add frozen peas/beans to heat through. You want them to be bursts of flavour and not mushy.
Taste, add more curry powder if needed.
Thicken with a good amount of cornflour mixed with water.
Serve with your cooked rice.
We tend to end up cleaning the bowls out with bread and butter post meal!
SUPER LAZY CAN’T BE FUCKED SLOW COOKER METHOD
Cut up raw sausages, potatoes and carrots, dice your onion/spring onion, and throw the whole lot in your slow cooker.
Mix your curry powder and, if using, aesofoetida with around 1/2 cup of water.
Cover and put on low for around 6 hours (until your potatoes are cooked through)
Add peas/beans to heat through. You want them to not be mushy.
Check that it tastes good and add more curry powder if needed.
Thicken sauce with cornflour and water mix as per normal.