Here’s to Tears

I thought I was doing better last week.

I went out, I saw people, I did all the things. I think the actual fact of it was that I was too busy to notice how fucked up I was. This week I’m not, and I have fallen over completely. Crying at the drop of a hat. Feeling guilty about needing time to study. Feeling even worse about taking time to myself to the point that I’m not. If I can’t drop it instantly to deal with family/house/baby I’m avoiding it entirely…

We leave for camping on Wednesday and I’m back to not wanting to go. Afraid I’ll just fuck it up for everyone else.

Here’s to the tears. Another week of surviving. Another round of medication changes. And another week of one foot in front of the other regardless of the brain.

3 thoughts on “Here’s to Tears

  1. Reading this hit home hard for me. I had the exact same thing last week. I was burnt out and it felt like it came out of no where. Slapped me right in the face. Just remember to breathe and feel proud you are taking steps to self care by going to the doctors and taking your medication. Mini win!!

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    1. I didnโ€™t get a chance to reply at the time you sent this, but it has now reminded me to take my meds twice, so thank you. I hope youโ€™re feeling better right now and things are looking up.

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      1. Ah that’s amazing. Yes, things always look up, it’s just at the time they don’t feel like they will. If you focus on yourself and be the best you can be you will impact and look after others without even noticing! ๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’™

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